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20 August 2013 @ 09:24 pm
Been a long time, LJ. Hope everyone is doing well. :)

I'm doing pretty well myself. Before I get on to a personal update, I just have to put it out there for all of LJ: I'm in a serious RPing mood!!!!! XD

I've fallen back in love with Code Geass, and I've just discovered the beautiful boys of Free!.... so if anyone is interested in RPing either of these series, please let me know~ ;)

Moving on.

After much deliberation, I've decided to move back to Florida. Chicago has been a wonderful experience, and while I do love the city and don't regret moving for an instant, I am a Florida girl at heart. The city is not the place for me, and I really miss the simple things like being able to drive a car.

That's not to say I'm giving up on acting. Theatre has always been and will always be a part of my life. It is my first love, and it will never go away. I am going to pursue voice acting, and hopefully something will come of that. I should be recording my commercial and character demo reels in the next week or so. I'm very excited to get that done and start sending that out to different companies.

But for now... This is just a little reel that I made myself, for fun, on my iphone.

06 May 2013 @ 03:13 pm

My mother brought home this article from our church bulletin (read it here:http://www.johnxxiii.net/wp-content/uploads/2013/05/107187_Bulletin050513W.pdf) for me to read and, seeing Dexter Morgan’s picture front and center, I had to read it right away. I'm a huge fan of Dexter, and really of any series that strays from the typical "good vs evil" and presents us with something grittier and not so black-and-white. The article really made me think, and spurred an in-depth conversation between my mother and I about the quickly plummeting morals of our society.

Now, I’ll be the first to agree that my and future generations are in trouble, but I don’t think the protagonists of primetime TV are to blame. I see why you’d argue that, sure. Dexter is a serial killer; modern-day vampires sparkle and swoon over teenage girls, but at the end of the day still have to battle their base instincts to tear their throats out. These are mortal sinners who, according to most religions, won’t be seeing the pearly gates when they pass on.

The flaw with your article is assuming that, just because these characters are “good guys” simply because they’re the protagonists. I’ll use Dexter as an example, not only because I love the show but because – as is it’s intention – this is the series that sparks most ethical debates. Yes, Dexter is a serial killer. And yes, as the protagonist of the show, we are on his side (most of the time). However, if anyone were to ask me if Dexter was a hero or a villain, I would say “villain.” His villainy is often offset by the fact that he regularly hunts down bigger, badder villains, but it does not change what he is.

Protagonist does not always equal good, you see. The protagonist of a story is not always, as you put it, “on the right side of the moral question.” Dexter’s morals are certainly not ones the show (or even the character himself!) encourages anyone to emulate. A protagonist is simply the leading character, whose story we follow. Dexter is the protagonist because he’s the main character. Seriously, that's it. Most people are just fooled by seeing “pro” at the front of the word, and they immediately assume they must be good; and while it’s true that “hero” is a commonly used synonym for protagonist, there are tons of instances in film and literature where that is not the case.

Let’s go back to one of the earliest protagonists in literature’s history: Oedipus Rex – who is in fact considered a “tragic hero!” Oedipus Rex was not a “good guy.” He kills his father and sleeps with his mother – a mortal sinner of the highest caliber – and his reasons for doing so aren’t exactly pure. However, we root for Oedipus, just like we root for Dexter and the handsome vampires. Why? Because in each and every one of us there is the capacity for great good and great evil. We can relate to these characters and their moral struggles – not to the same degree, perhaps, but still. We want to see them overcome their darkness. Stories like these are usually meant to be lessons for all of us to learn from.

This is what makes good writing, what makes compelling television shows that we want to tune in every week to watch. Not only do we question the protagonist’s morality and decisions, we also question our own. And I don’t think anything that makes us question our own ethics should be criticized or labeled as bad.

Instead of blaming fictional characters written primarily to entertain us, I think we should look instead for the real “bad guys” in our modern media. The people our children are idolizing and emulating in everyday life. Because seriously, when was the last time you heard the neighborhood kids saying they wanted to play “Dexter” with their friends? I’m betting it’s a lot less frequently than you overhear them singing along to songs that debase women, and glorifying “idols” such as Chris Brown. Rather than reading too much into characters that are realistically little more than words on paper (or make-believe images on a screen) we should be questioning a media that works so hard to raise our real-life "idols" on their pedestals to begin with.

21 April 2013 @ 02:42 pm
Thyroid has been removed and I'm recovering well. :) Only had to spend one night at the hospital, which is always a plus. I can't even describe all the flowers I have... my house looks like a flower shop, it's so pretty! <3
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04 April 2013 @ 11:10 am
Once you start with medical problems, you never stop. -__-
Since I was born with them, it looks like this will be my whole life. Every time I think, 'I'm done! That was my last surgery!' something new happens. Agghhehgatrfa.

Well. This isn't exactly a new development, it's something I've known about for around 6/7 years, but doctors have just wanted to keep an eye on it until this point. Actually, about a year ago I had decided I just wanted to have the surgery to get rid of it, but my Dr. suggested I hold off. So I listened, and it turns out I should have just had the surgery when I had the chance. Because it wasn't cancerous then, and might not still be cancerous now, but the general vibe is "eventually it will become cancerous" and the timing just would have been better last year, when I was not potentially cast in a big Hollywood film and just a few short weeks away from recording my vocal demo. >_>;

I swear, cancer, if you eff up my chances to break into this career, I will not be pleased. I'd still be able to write, but I would NOT be pleased.

The actual surgery I need to have done is a thyroidectomy, because of a few potentially-malignant thyroid nodules that have nearly doubled in size since my last thyroid ultrasound not even a year ago. The surgery itself I'm not concerned about. Surgery's old news to someone like me; I cant even remember how many I've had. But the thyoid sits just under or just over (can't remember which) the vocal cords, and there's a risk of damage to them. Which, as someone who hopes to become a voice actress, is NOT OK. If I can't hit my high notes, I'm screwed. =/

In the face of my health, I realize these things aren't big deals, and that whatever is meant to be will be. But still. Mehh.

Positive note: I get to stay in Florida a few more weeks, and miss the end of winter in Chicago. Yay!
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24 March 2013 @ 09:26 pm
Hello, friends!

I know I frequently forget about LJ, but I am alive and hope you're doing well! ^_^

A few months ago I posted about how I was getting my first short story published. Well, after round after round of editing, the time has finally come. Secretly, Secretly is now available online!!

I would really love it if you purchased a copy. It's only $2.99 and it's available immediately for download on Nook, Kindle or straight on your computer if you don't have an e-reader. Your support would mean the sun the stars the moon and beyond to me at this, the start of my potential writing career.

This is a gay, malexmale historical young adult novel. It is a sweet, romantic story (that you may recognize as a very old fanfic of mine, re-imagined, hehe! )

Please get it. <3 As I said, it's not expensive, and your support would really be everything to me.
(And if you could leave a review on the Silverstream page for it after you've read it, that would be doubly amazing!!)

Here is the synopsis:

Told alongside a series of flashbacks, 'Secretly, Secretly' is a historical romance that explores the relationship between two young men of vastly different upbringings, as they attempt to overcome the social norms that separate them.

How close can two people be?

It is the question Elijah Livingston has always wondered, and there's no one he would rather discover the answer with than his former servant and best friend, Gabriel. But Gabriel took flight of the Livingston estate, and with him went Elijah's hope of whatever future they might hold together. Eight years later, Elijah has the chance to win him back, and he won't stop until Gabriel is his again. In a time when nothing is more precious than a secret or more dangerous than a scandal, can master and servant find happiness in each other?

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07 November 2012 @ 12:48 pm
FINALLY the damn elections are over. Seriously, I don't think anything makes me dislike a candidate more then when they're campaigning for Presidency. -_-

My candidate didn't win, but I don't even care because I'm so relieved it's over. I can watch TV without having lies about about Obama and Romney and why they suck or why they're awesome shoved down my throat, all the while cringing over how much money went into those ads that could have served such better purposes. 

Democrat or Republican, we all want the same thing: the betterment of our country. Neither candidate wanted to see America or her citizens fail. So Obama stays in the White House another four years. Lets hope he does something this time around, and things can get better. :)
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28 October 2012 @ 03:29 am

So I randomly decided to submit a short story of mine (formerly a fanfic) for publication...

.... And it got accepted.

Was not expecting it at all.
Feels pretty good. :D

Maybe I won't rule out a writing career just yet!

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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26 October 2012 @ 12:04 pm
Don't really know where this came from or where I want to go with it. I blame The New Normal for the idea getting lodged in my head, but yeah. Just sat down one night, turned on some Mumford & Sons, and started writing this... I just love the idea of Lulu and Suza having a family, I think it's just the cutest thing. ^^

I would love to continue this, but don't really know where to go with it. o_o I may be in need of a co-writer or something. lol

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Current Music: hopeless wanderer - mumford & sons
26 October 2012 @ 11:29 am
Still getting used to living on my own. It feels... weird. o_o It's way too quiet without my big loud Italian family around, I'm not sure I like it. But the city is sooooo pretty. I wish I could just magically transport my family here, then it would be perfect.

Oh, and get rid of the bugs. Figures that I, with my massive phobia of bugs, would be saddled with an apartment that has a bug problem. Dear Irony, thank you for making me literally face my fears every day. I don't even know what to do since the exterminator came earlier in the week and sprayed the hell out of the apartment and they're STILL around! They're like roaches - except they're not in the roach family, I asked. But they're gross whatever they are, and they're pissing me off. I swear I enter the kitchen with a weapon  (windex + paper towel) and my game face on every morning.

Other than all that excitement.... I have started a new CG fic! It's going to be sad and depressing like the last one. That seems to be my specialty. But it wasn't my idea!!! It was a request fic, I'm just doing my job and giving the requester what she wants!!

Summary: With the diagnosis, Suzaku thinks his life is over. It takes the reappearance of a childhood friend to teach him there is still so much to live for. "Those are just words on paper, don't let them control you. Only you can define who you are." / Eventual SuzaLulu.

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II. Roads UntraveledCollapse )

Unrelated, but.... has anyone watched [C]--Control? I'm watching it right now. All the financial talk is making my head spin, but it has totally drawn me in and I can't stop watching. xDD; 
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10 September 2012 @ 01:56 pm
I think I may have mentioned in my last post that I was working on something original. If I didn't... well, I am working on something original. Something I'm hoping will be a colab with my cousin who is a super amazing artist. We want to either turn it into a manga or an illustrated novel. We're still trying to nail out all the details of the storyline and whatnot, and we're both pretty busy... she has a family and two kids and I'm moving to another state. But we're hoping with the power of the internet we can make something work!

The working title for now is "The Third Child" because one of the main plotpoints is that in this fictional dystopian world, a family is only allowed to have two children - one boy and one girl. Any attempt to have more children, or to keep a naturally born third child (a twin) is considered an act of treason punishable by exile. Of course, the central character happens to be a third child - a twin kept in secret. 

Basically, this idea drew inspiration from several series -- Code Geass, Hunger Games and disney's Cinderella. But we're hoping that our idea will stand alone as something unique and not remind anyone too much of any one of those series. 

Feedback would be awesome. :) 

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